Since I was 13 years old, I have silently dealt with low self-esteem. What I thought about myself and how I looked to myself. For a long time, I dealt with weight issues, my value and my beauty. I believed the lies I told my self for years. People would tell me that I was beautiful all the time but I could not see it. There was nothing you could do or say to convince any differently because I didn’t believe it for my self.

Then one day, a chord finally struck in me when someone said to me “Some days you look pretty, some days you just look regular. You don’t have an “it” factor. There is nothing special about you.”

That was undoubtedly, the most hurtful conversation that I have ever experienced. Talk about a major blow to the innermost part of me. In that very moment, my life changed forever.

Victory over my 15 year self esteem battle came just weeks before my 28th birthday when I simply asked the Lord two questions: “How do you see me?” and “What makes me special to you?”

Here is what He said to me in prayer:

“Uh, because you are literally to die for! Whenever you are feeling worthless, purposeless, overlooked and forgotten, remember that I thought that you were worth more than anything in this world. My Love paid the cost for you! “Greater love has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends.” John 15:13 NASB

He continued on to say, “Beloved, you are not here by accident regardless of whether you were born out of wedlock or even a product of an unfortunate circumstance. The world needed you! That is the exact reason why I saw fit to create you. Without you, so many people will be missing out on something great and no one else can replace that greatness and purpose that I assigned specifically to you. You are irreplaceable. You were created with purpose. You are special. It’s something about you. I bought you with a price, which in return makes you precious cargo and you are highly valued to Me. “Others were given in exchange for you. I traded their lives for yours because you are precious to me. You are honored and I love you” Isaiah 43:4 TLTV. “Know that I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb. Before you were born, I gave your life purpose and I called you and I appointed you. You had a purpose, even before birth!” Jeremiah 1:5 TLTV ” 

Although 15 years is a long time to suffer , I thank God for that. Once I was able to come out of it, my confidence shot up to the sky. I like what and who I see when I look in the mirror. I love everything about myself.

To the beautiful young girl or woman dealing with low self esteem and lack self confidence: When you come to realize how much God adores you, I guarantee it will change your entire mind about how you feel about yourself. Through this experience, I got to know my God, Jesus Christ as the one who delivers and you can too. Ask God to help you to see yourself through His eyes. I promise you that it will change your entire perspective about yourself 🙂

#SingMyLife “When I don’t fit in, and I don’t feel like I belong anywhere. When I don’t measure up to much in this life. Oh I’m a treasure in the arms of Christ” Forgiven by Sanctus Real